Saturday, July 02, 2005
Saturdays..

The weekends are here again, but it only spells doing tutorials after tutorials at home cuz I'm not having the mood to go out anywhere this week. Got back most of my ica's results, but I wasn't really satisfied with some. Guess I never change.. always seeking for perfection when nobody can ever attain that. Hope I can perform better during the next few exams.

Nothing much has been going on recently. The only change is that more and more work are gradually piling up, increasing my workload. Seniors say that first year in poly are considered as the honeymoon year, but somehow or rather, it really sounds wrong to me. Haha. Its either the truth or perharps I'm giving myself too much unnecessary pressure. Certain people believe that a certain amount of pressure is able to motivate others to improve and work harder, I wonder if this does ever happens to me? Or maybe its just that I haven't been able to recognise that I've improved? haha. Funny me. Yes, after all these years, I'm still giving myself quite alot of pressure, and it seems that the pressure that I'm giving myself is increasing bit by bit every semester, but I have no clue if its in the right amount? As in the right amount of pressure that inspire one to improve and succeed, or too much to make myself crumble? Guess I've gotta take it easy for now as its just only the first semester, or the next two years would be a terrible one.

Surprisingly, I didn't expect her to react in such a manner. Taking the way things that has been planned much earlier, and not procrastinating about every each and single detail. She seems to sound like, "ok, I shall accept my fate!", whenever we have discussions. Hopefully she doesn't think in this way. Frankly speaking, she has changed. I'm shocked. Is she changing just to accomodate us or is she simply putting up a front? I really hope that's not the case.

Another project added to my heavy-enough-to-make-me-crumble workload. Business report writing. Phew.. Luckily there isn't any presentation for this, if I'm not wrong. Ok, so there's four major projects on hand. I really hope to survive thru this man. Cuz there are semestral exams after that. Good luck to me..

Enough of my grumbles.. I really sound like some 70-year-old grandma. Haha. Take care all.. Doodles~