Monday, October 10, 2005
10/10/2005

nothing much has been happening recently. i just want say that i'll be flying off to thailand on this coming fri morning, and will be back on sunday night. i'm looking forward to this trip, and this time, i will definitely shop till i drop! hehe. this is the last week before school reopens for the new semester, and frankly speaking, i will miss my holidays terribly! boohoohoo. ='( dun ask me why, cause i love doing nothing, and holidays is the only best time to do nothing. haha. what a stupid excuse. =p

there's still so much things i haven't do!! haha. meeting jose for coffee, tidying my clothes, watching movies, do some last minute shopping before school starts etc. arggghh!! wonder if holidays can be extended for another week? lol. >.< the thought of rushing 8am lectures, waking up at 6am, rushing for mrt... ahhh.. totally turns me off. eeeeps.

watched the myth ytd. i can only say that the movie was marvellous!! it did lived up to my expectations, jin xi shan looked great, and i loved the theme song, endless love! woohoo! i wanna watch it again!! =X

my sis has been behaving so secretly recently. sometimes, i can't figure out what's she doing to her life. i went out for dinner on sat with my family, and i decided to get a new pair of shoes. as soon we got into the store, i tried out three pairs of shoes, and finally decided to get one. my sis sat in a corner, with her usual sulky face, and said that she wanted to get a new pair of slippers (as in those kind of slippers not allowed in my sch). frankly speaking, i thought she didn't deserve to buy those slippers. its not that i wanted the slippers, or i habour any selfish thoughts. i just felt that based on her attitude, she didn't deserve any reward at all. yes, i know we shouldn't work hard and expect to get a reward in return, but i could sense that she didn't put in any effort at all towards her studies, or in any other things. without any effort, hard work.. and she can get so many rewards in return? oh boy, its so unfair! nothing is ever fair in life.. i know that. sometimes we work so hard to accomplish our goals, our dreams.. but in the end, the result is ain't what we want. and people like her can just get what she want without even lifting a finger. just tell me how unfair it is. just tell me!! i'm still feeling abit agitated, but i'm feeling much better than ytd. we never fail to get into arguements and fights everyday. frankly speaking, i'm very tired. very very very very tired. i just wish all these nonsense can be put to a stop as soon as possible. all my effort put into the talks and scoldings to persuade her to put more time and effort into her studies, have simply gone down the drain. everytime i talk to her about such stuffs, she would just scream at me and ask me to scram, or scream vulgarities at me. she doesn't seem to be aware of what's she doing, how concerned everybody is towards her.. and as her sister, i do feel that i'm such a failure in disciplining her. sometimes, i really wonder if its my fault that i spent too much time concentrating on my studies, and negelected her, resulting her to behave in such a manner.

imsuchafailure.imsuchafailure.imsuchafailure.imsuchafailure.imsuchafailure.imsuchafailure.