Wednesday, November 02, 2005
2/11/05
happy belated bday jas!! hope you enjoyed yourself during that short get-together session at sketches! =)lemme summarize what i have been doing for the past two days..
TUES
was being digged out of bed at 9am, and prepared for my swimming trip. it has been months since i last swam, and was looking forward to it. wasn't very sure how many laps i swam, i think its at least 10 laps. ha. went for half an hour of jacuzzi after that. took a bath, and had lunch at lot 1. rushed home, and was preparing to meet ling to go bugis together. sorry ling, had to keep ya waiting since 2plus. *paiseh* chatted with her about the bangkok trip experience, and some other stuff. started walking around bugis while waiting for jas and yan to arrive. ling finally found the black adidas jac she wanted. 109 bucks. >.<>
WED
the alarm clock shook me up at 6.15. *yawn* packed my bag, took my breakfast, and soon i found myself sitting in dad's car, dozing off. reached sch at 8.15, ordered a cup of mac coffee, and started daydreaming till 8.45. ha. i dragged myself to the lift, and before i knew it, i was sitting in the other lab, waiting for the other class to leave the lab. lessons were pretty boring as usual. qf and i kept talking and laughing throught oral comm class, hmm.. oh well.. ain't gonna tell you guys what we were discussing about. heh. econs lesson was pretty short today, ms hoh was willing to let us off early, or else, i think that we will all be bored to death. had a short discussion about the stats proj after the lesson, then i headed home.
reached home, and i gave thoughts to lots of things. i learnt this simple value or principle (whatever you call it..) from my sec sch maths teacher.. treat others the way you want others to treat you. nothing is fair in this world. you study hard, but that doesn't mean that you will get your desired results at the end. i've just always felt that if you treat people well, others will do the same to you. till now, i guess it has always been a naive thinking on my part. ok, i understand that sometimes, people do have their bad days, but that doesn't mean that you can or should vent your anger and frustration on to other innocent parties, whom doesn't even have a clue on what's going on. i have always treat people nicely, but some just take it for granted. (if i didn't treat you nicely, well, i apologise.. i must have had a bad day.) i don't mind that others might not treat me as well as i treated them, but, the most disappointing thing is that, some people just turn their back off you and stab a knife behind, without you knowing a single thing. call me stupid, an idiot.. whatever. i don't care. i was devasted when i knew that a friend, which i thought i could trust and share my secrets with, turned her back on me. i felt betrayed. and the feeling is really really terrible. when i got to learn this recently, this definitely shook my trust in her. i have no idea what is her motive behind this whole thing, and currently, i'm not in the mood to find out anything. i don't know if i will be able to work along with her for the next couple of months, because the impression that she once left on me had changed, and i can't bring myself to trust her in anything she does. if you know me well, i can't stand people like, backstabbers and betrayers. i guess its the same for everyone. nobody likes to be backstabbed or betrayed, so i hope you guys wouldn't do this to any of your friends. for me, once the trust between friends and friends are gone, its gone forever. and i mean it. its not that i'm unwilling to forgive, but, its totally impossible to ask me to forgive somebody who has inflicted such pain on me. seriously speaking, though the truth came to light 1-2 days ago, i just can't swallow the fact that she did this to me and another friend of mine. i have been feeling very moody recently, so do please accept my apology if i give anybody cold treatment, or i suddenly change into another person. i don't mean to do this to anyone of you. =)
sorry.. no pics for this entry. too lazy to upload to photobucket. argh.. i'm very very VERY tired. gonna sleep like a log after this. byebye.. and enjoy the long holidays!
cherling wrote on 11:30 pm.
